Summertime

Summer '08 is almost halfway through and it's been okay. i've been mostly working. Although i don't like my work project 'cause it's not inspiring and it didn't meet my expectations. However, my co-workers are inspiring. i think i'd learn more from talking to them all day than researching endlessly on the web this whole summer. For example, one of them use to be a jr speech writer for Barack Obama and another led a HIV health intervention at a city in Tanzania. Plus,they're hilarious and nice. :) They helped me gain a different perspective on what i want to do in the future. Although i only told a few people, i thought i was absolutely sure of what i wanted to do, what i wanted to be in the future. Now i'm confused and indecisive. Funny how a month can change what you want to be for the rest of your life.

Fin.

College List

I'm pretty solid on these colleges/universities.

Reach
Harvard College
University of Southern California
Columbia/ Washington University in St. Louis (either or)

Semi-reach/ "Iffy"
University of Califonia San Diego
Georgetown

Likely
Boston College
McGill University
Tufts

Safety
Boston University
Northeastern University

I'm scared. Can't believe that the end of my highschool career is less than a year and the whole college process starts in about two months.

Summer reading books are actually kind of interesting this year. Or maybe i've just been brainwashed into thinking that after 5 years at BLS. ...Hm. Probably the latter. lol.

Productive Day

Today has been a relatively productive day. I organized my wardrobe, started on summer reading and killed two bugs. Organizing clothes might be an easy task for a normal person, but not me especially since i have a lot more clothes than a normal teenager and didn't thoroughly clean my drawers for a while. I really need to abstain from shopping for more clothes. ugh. I realized that i don't wear most of my clothes. I agree with mr. martin when he said that 80% of people only wear 20% of their clothes, which is certainly applies to me. I stumbled across many obsolete articles of clothing that made me smile. A "single" t-shirt someone gave me for my 13th birthday, ballet tutu from way back when, training bras....LOL. the list can go on and on. Finally I'm done, but my room is still a complete mess. I'll clean that up...later.

I feel that i need to do most of my work now because i know i'll become a lazy pig as the summer progresses. I'm already becoming a couch potato by watching america's best crew and true hollywood stories. I'm going to get off my lazy ass and force myself to clean my room now. Toodles.

Suffocating

No, I'm not having an asthma attack. LOL But i feel like I can't breathe from all the pressure and work I have. I have so much to do in such little time, but yet I really don't feel like doing it. I remember around this time last year, I would just be chilling, but right now the workload is intense. I can feel white hairs sprouting from my head.

RIP to those who died in the Sichuan earthquake and Myanmar cyclone. It's kind of sad how I'm freaking about my research paper and colleges, but millions are worrying for their lives and family. I'm just going to keep my complaints to myself, because I know how good I have it right now. If a natural disaster hit Boston right now, I don't know what I would do. I think it would definitely snap me back to reality and help me realize what's truly important.

I was watching Keeping up with the Kardashians the other night and the episode was about the Kardashians helping out a family whose home remains destroyed after Hurricane Katrina. Although it occurred three years ago, it made a grave impact on thousands of families, who are still recovering the damage today.

When I'm going through my troubles, someone would often say something like, "Look on the bright side, a lot of people have it worse." Maybe I'm just a selfish, spoiled, ignorant brat, but I get pissed off when people say that to me. Yes, there are people dying everyday, people starving on streets and people getting shot, but you don't really think about that when you're drowned in your own problems. When you're purchasing a coach bag or a pair of gucci heels, you wouldn't think, "this would support a family in Africa for a year," you'd most likely think, "this would look good with this shirt" or "i can't wait till I wear this on Saturday", etc. It's human nature to be self-centered to a certain extent, but I also think it's important to step back and see how good you have it once in a while. I don't think I'm making sense anymore, so I'll just end this here. Bye.

SoCal loveee <3

I went to California over the weekend and i loved it! but it was scorching hot. it was high 80s- low 90s. i know that's not that hot to Californians, but it felt like a freaking heatwave to me. I visited UCLA and USC and i was sweating a storm after, but it was worth it. 

UCLA was..mediocre. The tour guide made UCLA sound so great with all the events and singoffs with hollywood references. Like, Sarah Baresilles (sp?),the "love song" singer went there, legally blonde was taped there, britney spears went to the psychiatric ward there, etc. I'm sure i'd have a lot of school pride there, but i wasn't in love with the campus. There were so many asians! more specifically, fobs. lol. the only non-asians there were the tour guides, probably because they're the only ones who can speak fluent english? I asked this asian guy for directions and i couldn't understand him. He was cute though, but that's beside the point. LOL. Overall, i wouldn't mind going to UCLA (if i make it in...), but it lacks diversity in my opinion. The only diversity there was practically cantonese vs. mandirins. haha. I guess people who like to be surrounded by asians and like to buy high brand name luxuries (Dior, LV, Coach, rodeo drive's just a street or two away), you would want to go here.

USC= LOVE. I was looking forward to visiting this school the most and i wasn't disappointed. It had a more collegiate feel to it and it was gorgeouss! People say that USC is more "ghetto" than UCLA, but everything is "ghetto" compared to Westwood. There are security carts at every corner and when you push the button, the person will drive you home safely. So not much worries about safety. I honestly love love love the campus and i want to go there even more now. TROJAN PRIDE. hahaha however, the problem is if i can get in and financial aid. lol I wouldn't want to graduate college with a $100, 000 debt. Crazzyyy.

My mom's friend also told me about UCSD. I haven't really looked into that school, but now i'm interested because they say the campus is really pretty and relaxing since it's near a beach. I like beach scenery. I have to research that further. Oh yeah, Cali kids are crazzyyyy smart! There's this girl i met there and she has a 4.5 gpa, but got rejected from UCLA. She's going to UCBerkeley though so that's still good. Yeah, that kinda eliminates all my chances of getting into UCLA, not that i'm really heartbroken about it anyway. I stayed with my mom's friend and their kids are adorableee!! they're so cute and i loved playing with them. mucho fun. haha

This is a enormously long entry. Just gonna end it here. Bye, biddies.